Into The Earth
On the fifth day of the experimental Training space Women Of Earth Lab, I, along with 34 other women, lay outside on the grass in the shade of a tree at the edge of a small lake.
This in and of itself could be legendary. Each of these women were partially ‘strangers’ just days before, and in a few days had become a living working organism through which Bright Principles of Love and Devotion and Clarity and Being With and Magic were radiating. Each of these Women had supported the other Women in stepping over — or being re-born over — the line out of Patriarchy, and into a newness that can only exist when the hidden bullshit that we inherited from the dominant Modern Culture burns completely. After that we decided to be consciously de-baptized, jumping wildly into the water and celebrating each other’s stands.
This legend, however, holds simple magic of a leaf falling off a tree.
We laid on the earth with eyes closed, to energetically connect with agents of Gaia, by travelling down through an energetic Gateway into the Earth. This particular Gateway started at a dead tree that was sticking up from the water. The portal called to us and we were a yes. To pass through the Gateway we needed to bring an authentic necessary question.
I traveled down through the water with the guidance of a guardian frog to the muddy floor. He told me to keep going. Through the fecund muck I sank, until I entered into a glowing green chamber and was welcomed by the Moss Nation. There I asked my question: What steps do I need to take to become jacked into my Archetypal Lineage?
First, they showed me the wildness of my mind on a big screen, the ways in which I distract and scatter my focus as well as my Energetic Body. They said, “It is time to bring the wildness down into your other bodies.”
Next, they gave me the following steps:
Sit for 44 minutes in the morning and 16 minutes at night.
Sew your own clothing from clothing you already have.
Wear white and pinks and reds.
Ask four people to dismantle your keystone Memes.
This is a legend about following steps, and not knowing or expecting there to be a tangible outcome. This is a legend about being scared to ask people what Memes they see blocking my evolution, and asking anyway, knowing that these people will offer doorways to my further unfolding. What Distinctions, and lack of, am I using to interact with the world and keep my Box’s ways of operating intact? What was my Being leaning on, like a scaffolding or a platform, that was holding me together when I actually need to fall apart?
So far I’ve asked two of the four people about what are the specific Memes that are blocking me from being at source, from delivering my non material value into the world.
These are the memes I’ve discovered so far:
I am not good enough YET and if I work hard I will make it.
I better be good and do it right, or else I will be punished.
There is something wrong with me, I need to be fixed before I can “start” my life.
These Memes have been working like a well oiled machine inside, and they are keeping me hiding, avoidant and living in Fantasy about my relationships, both with myself and others. They have kept me tip toeing around in my Life, rather than empowering myself and other women around me to RADIATE and be fully alive in Reality.
For my next step, I am using my Fear to notice how these Memes are woven into my interactions with the world, and when I spot them I tell a sister or multiple sisters. I say it out loud!
I am sitting in the morning and night. I am wearing less black now, incorporating the colors. When I get back to the states from the Women Of Earth Bridge-house in Brazil, I will cut up my clothing and turn them into different clothing.
This is how it is going.
I included the image of the tree stump gateway, for anyone who wants to close your eyes as we did, and energetically travel down to meet the Guardian and bring an authentic question. Gateways Into the Earth exist all over the planet. You will have your own journey, your own necessities, and answers specific to your path here on the planet. I used to hide and think sharing something like this would be crazy, and now I sense I’m closer to Reality than I’ve ever been.
Love, Beth